TRUTH.

This will be the first and only time I will be wasting a post on this. I'm far too pissed with this girl who refuses to stop to let this pass.

As not everyone may know (as I'm sure not everyone's interested with my life), I had an erstwhile relationship with this guy, and had a nasty break-up shortly thereafter. This is what happened, as opposed to what that bitch of a girl may have STILL been trying to tell people.

This guy had been incessantly pursuing me the past 4 years DESPITE having a girlfriend. Whenever he and the girlfriend would have a fight, nasty ones I should say, he would run to me. At first it was just a friendly relationship, but through time, he would eventually tell me lies (that they've broken up, thus he was free) to try to get in my pants. FUCKING DOUCHEBAG. There were times I almost gave in to temptation and started a relationship with him behind the back of the girl, but I'd always stop myself before getting in too deep. I'd still see him often as his closest cousin was also my bestfriend. I'd get invited to all their family occasions because I was close to his whole family. Never once did I see this girl in any occasion- she had a nasty reputation with the family. She once let her father beat up the guy. AND SHE GOT CAUGHT CHEATING ON HIM TWICE. Nice girl, right? (That was sarcasm, if you didn't get it.) That is, however, beside the point. I was just trying to make her a little easier to picture for those who, fortunately, do not know her.

I didn't fuck her over, if that is what she's hinting on. No, it was her BOYFRIEND who fucked her over. No sense in putting the blame on me. Or maybe she should just blame herself for being a bitch who got caught cheating twice. SHAMELESS.

When he came to me earlier this year, I never wanted to pursue a relationship with him other than friendship. I lent him an ear, because I thought it was understood that it was only friendship we both wanted, nothing more. We even cleared everything up between us that night we went to a concert. We hung out often, but always in a group. I was happy with my life, and he knew that.

The time we spent together became even more frequent. He would update me about his relationship, and I would do the same with him. I would scold him for being crazy in love with this girl who was so, let me put it this way--- special, his best friend almost beat her up for being such a bitch. He was blinded by what he believed was love but he was too stupidly in love to even see it. I never gave him advice because I had an intention of being in a relationship with him. I made him understand that I was only telling him these things because he was a dear FRIEND to me, nothing more. Besides, I had a special someone at that time too. 

This exchange was after I went home from his birthday celebration.
He always texted me first, most of the time in the wee hours of the night.

I was just surprised when one day, he told me he finally broke up with the girl. I NEVER COERCED HIM TO DO ANYTHING HE DIDN'T WANT TO. The surprise, however, was short-lived, as I was already used to his on-off relationship with her. He began to court me shortly after that.

Fast forward to a few months later, I thought of giving the relationship a chance. I stopped dating other people. I told him to keep it a secret from the girl because as another girl, I was only thinking about how she would take the news, with their breakup still relatively fresh. I wanted to give her time to heal before she found out the news about us. We were happy for a time, until he told me the girl started texting him again to win him back. Being the lenient girlfriend that I was, I just told him to tell her once and for all it was over, and refused his proposal to change his number. I wasn't the jealous type. If there was one thing I ever regretted, it was being too trusting, and not letting him change his number. Turns out, they resumed texting each other shortly thereafter behind my back. This guy even had the guts to tell people I ALLOWED him to text her often. I wasn't that stupid. Why would I allow him? I wasn't out of my mind.

Things went smoothly in the relationship. My family knew about him. I was able to go to their home in Bulacan, after an outing, where he introduced me to his family from the mother's side. His family are all good people, God bless them.

A week later, things took a turn for the worst. The day after a date, he suddenly became cold to me. I was pissed but I never showed him. I was even thinking about breaking up with him, because I felt like we rushed things too much, and honestly, my feelings for him wasn't as strong as I expected it to be. Friday night he texted me to meet him at a mall, without saying why. I said okay, thinking if things went wrong, I'd break up with him, because I was so pissed at the way he was acting the past few days and he wasn't even the least bit apologetic about it.The morning of Saturday, my bestfriend gave me a call saying she had two spare tickets to an amusement park and wanted us both to accompany her. I called my then-boyfriend and asked if we could forego the trip to the mall and go with his cousin instead. He told me no, and said if I wanted to, I should go on the trip alone. I got pissed even more because it was so uncharacteristic of him. He would never let me go somewhere alone, without him picking me up at home. I was doubly, triply, motherf'nly pissed. 

Being the stickler for being on time that I was, I arrived at the mall at exactly 10 AM. We first agreed on 9 AM, but as I was about to leave, he changed to 10. So there I was at the arranged venue, SO PISSED, and about to give him hell, at 10 AM on the dot. He made me wait for two more hours. I went to this fastfood to get something to drink as I was already tired from having to walk around the mall, when he asked me where I was. I told him where and just as I was about to take a seat, I saw him enter the place, with the girl RIGHT BEHIND HIM. I was fuming, but I still tried to keep my cool. I've only met the girl once near their school in Dapitan, and it wasn't exactly a good experience. When he sat in front of me, with the other girl on the table beside us, and started his litany of bullshit, it took every ounce of me not to slap the living daylights out of him. I decided to stick with my good manners and did not say anything. He said it was unfair to me if he continued the relationship because he still thought of her, and all that shit. I think he was waiting for me to thank him for breaking up with me in the most cowardly way possible, without even explaining why he HAD to bring the girl with him. While thinking of what best to say to him, he impatiently told me the most ungentlemanly line ever, "Wala ka bang sasabihin? Kung wala, mauna na kami umalis." The fcker had no intention of giving me the privilege of walking out on them and acted all high and mighty as if it would be my honor to cheer them on and wish them luck. I answered with "hindi. Mauuna ako. FUCK YOU," the kindest words I could muster without creating a scene in such a crowded place where the closest customer was within an arm's length away from me. I proceeded to walk out, when I heard a female voice calling out my name from the restaurant. I didn't bother to look because I was hell bent on getting away from the two people who disgusted me the most. The girl overtook me and I saw that it was THE EX. She repeatedly begged for my forgiveness, all the while saying sorry, and "pareho naman tayo...". I told her to stop, to get away away from me, because her apologies were useless. I left her there and went my own way. I didn't bother crying because they weren't worth it. They were pathetic little love-struck assholes who didn't care about anyone else except their selfish love for each other.

Thing is, I would have gladly broken up with him if he did it the right way. One, he shouldn't have done it in such a public place, within earshot of everyone. He didn't even bother to tone down his voice. Two, I still don't understand why he had to bring HER. It's as if I'd put up a fight and beg him to stay if he didn't bring the girl. Gwapo mo, 'lul. As he seemed to not care about giving me at least a tiny bit of respect that day, I lost all respect for him as a human being. I'd have loved to see from his point of view regarding the decisions he made that day, but I can't seem to get my head that far up my ass.

This guy is the scum of the earth. The girl is a bitch who hasn't stopped bashing me since time immemorial. For 2 months, I shut up about this injustice. Now, I believe, is high time for me to fight back and get the JUSTICE I FULLY DESERVE. I treated them with humanity and all I get is this girl talking shit about me, ANIMAL INSTINCT CLEARLY TAKING OVER.

I could say nice things about them but I would rather tell the truth. They make me sick.

ARLO AND KRISSELLDA, YOU CAN GO FUCK YOURSELVES.

P.S. Arlo and Krissellda, I know you have, and will continue to, read this OVER AND OVER AGAIN. Still, FUCK YOU. 

THE GIRL YOU BOTH FUCKED OVER,
ANJ :)

Haunting of the Seven Devils

"The best among us will learn from the mistakes of the past, while the rest of us are doomed to repeat them." - Emily Thorne (Revenge)

I've been hooked on the TV series Revenge for the past few days. Revenge is the story of a woman named Emily Thorne who is trying to avenge her father's wrongful death in the hands of the powerful matriarch of a Southampton clan, who was also incidentally cheating WITH her father. She tries to accomplish this through grand schemes involving powerful connections and a whole lot of money.

I've got a few revenge strategies of my own up my sleeve but unlike Emily Thorne, I don't dare use them. Or maybe I tried once. Oh, and mine are just small plots as compared to her grand machinations.

Anyway, this post is just an excuse for me to share Florence + the Machine's Seven Devils, a song which can be heard throughout the entire series. Very appropriate, I should say as the song is one of revenge, what with the the seven devils lurking in the shadows for the day of reckoning, waiting for all lies to be exposed.

I cannot wait for Season 2.

Watching with the Seven Devils,

Explorimentator A

P.S. This song was also used for the preview of Game of Thrones Season 2. NOW THAT IS A WHOLE BUNCH OF AWESOME.

Vangie

I got my very first question as an explorimentation master (naaaaaks, shet!) a few days back from a friend I will name, for the purpose of this entry, Vangie (because in real life, she likes Vangies... if you know what I mean).

Screencap of M's text message